Benjamin Franklin once said, “Nothing is certain but death and taxes.” That would mean that everything else in our lives hinges on the UN-certain.
You plan a meticulous four-week road trip. The second week someone comes down with COVID. By the way, the same can happen on a two-week cruise to Hawaii.
You think you are doing just fine in Widowhood and you wake up one glorious morning to that trigger song on the radio. Down you plummet into tears and depression.
It is especially true that, as we age, the uncertainties in life seem to glow hot, searing our courage from the inside out and causing our footsteps, in this life, to falter. At my age, I do not wish to stumble (again). So, I begin making excuses and I say, “NO” more often. But all I am doing is denying myself, making for a dull existence, emptying my life of purpose. It is all because of uncertainty. Since I haven’t decided yet, because of uncertainty, I am saying NO to myself. Ahh, that dreaded word: NO! The two-letter word that children and teenagers hate to hear. NO is a word we have learned to tell ourselves because uncertainty rules the day.
At the end, I don’t want a load of regrets, piled up in the corner of my life, all because of uncertainty. At my end, my heart will stop. But, I don’t want it to cease beating because it is sad, never being given the important things desired. I want my heart to rest because it was made happy, and fulfilled, and is simply ready to rest.
There should be some lovely verse pouring from my heart but I can’t think of anything inspiring. And that is okay because my heart knows I am listening to it. And it still beats, even when I am uncertain.
I guess it’s time to make some decisions.
