When I look at the world outside myself I . . .
That prompt was offered to me at my journaling class last week. I found it a hard one to follow through with. I have been so focused on myself and decisions that need to be made in the moment. I really have not looked outside. When I chose to sell my home I finally found the time and energy to focus on other things and on other people. Still, I am hesitant to focus outward. Being an introvert up until my 20’s, I taught myself, right or wrong, that what path I chose did not adversely affect other people’s lives. Although God cares about others, and I care about others, my path has been mine to follow. I’m afraid there has been little concern for the hearts of others in my decision-making. There have been exceptions to that rule: two husbands and an aging mother. Now, on my own, I am choosing to leave my home and my friends.
Yes, my friends are a little sad but their lives will not stop or be wounded by my absence. They will go on with their lives, with the occasional, and positive (hopefully) thoughts of me. And that is the way it should be. You are there. Then you are gone and you are missed. Then the world moves on.
I have been talking a lot about a New Lifetime, moving on, and moving forward. I assure you, memories of my family and friends will follow me on my journey. I will miss everyone I leave behind and count myself a lucky woman to have had you all as friends. So . . .
When I look at the world outside myself I see a New Lifetime and a desire to move forward. And I believe my friends can see that too.
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